HRT

May 11
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White Daffodils alone in a field ... Fragile but Resilient.

May 11, 2026

I began Hormone Replacement Therapy (HRT) on April 29, 2026, and noticed an impressive change within days. I felt so much 'lighter', like this huge heavy darkness lifted off of me. As though I had been trapped in thick heavy clay that was holding me down and suffocating me. It had been making everything I had to do a daily struggle. Now I feel like I can almost do anything. Now I know a lot of that is my ADHD, with this darkness off of me I feel myself riding this amazing high. It will pass once the 'novelty' wears off, so another two weeks at the most, but right now I feel amazing.

Ok, I feel a little too high, I get that, but I had been sooooo freaken low for soooo long that this new high is amazing! It is a bit much, as for a few days I literally felt like I was buzzing from the inside, that much has subsided...phew. My speech is still erratic and extremely fast, and I have a hard time staying on topic when talking to my health care providers that I see weekly, but they know me and just let me keep rolling along. They are so patient and understanding...I am very lucky for that. But this all will pass and I will have a new baseline. The old baseline was so low that right now I am in the clouds, but my new baseline will be lower than this buzzing high soon enough and I will be feeling so much better.

I've been able to get work down and not be exhausted and in a world of pain. It has been amazing. Even today I had my chainsaw out and cut down all the sucker trees around the barns and am glad I ran out of fuel, or I would have kept going...this I took as a sign to call it a day. But I feel AMAZING! I know I've already said this but...OMG...for those of you who know the suffering I deal with...the CPTSD, Fibro, ADHD, Perimenopause(killer), Osteoarthritis, CFS, Migraines, TN... just to name a few... you get the weight of the exhaustion I carry. But now with my hormones no longer being so low I can hardly function, I feel like the world is so much brighter and I am so happy...like really happy. Obviously, my depression (CPTSD) is still here but it's not absolute blackness anymore. There's room to breathe and function and it really is the best thing I have ever done for myself. ...and as you can see, I am an absolute chatterbox...YAY ADHD and feeling great!!! :) I really do enjoy my ADHD and I am happy to have her back, maybe not this high, but higher than she had been for a long time...I was always the one 'running' and although no, my body cannot do that anymore...I am not 8 yrs old :( ... I am still excited to have this happy/excited energy back...God, I've missed her.

So, my HRT is Estradot (patch) and Auro-Progesterone...both the lowest doses of course. I had told my GP this is what I wanted and I even told him I wanted to be referred to the Women's Clinic at the Riverside Hospital. They even got back to him already and although they denied the referral at the hospital, they did refer me to their own private clinic so I could get in sooner as the hospital is completely backlogged. How amazing are they eh!!! This too has only happened in the past week as well. I am so excited!

I chose the patch because it would be easier on my system seeing as it didn't have to go through my insides and causing havoc with my IBS and GERD. Plus, the progesterone is required to protect the uterus, and it also helps with relaxation and sleep. I chose to take the full cycle because it was easier to just stay with my hormones leveled out then to cycle up and down. My head has been too scrambled, and I just didn't want to deal with the ups and downs, so this was the best route for me. Once I get in to see the Doctors at the private clinic then we can decide if this is still the best route, but as someone who is not a doctor I felt this was what I can do for myself at this time, before my head finally exploded...or imploded...or whatever the pain/confusion/craziness was trying to do to me.

Speaking of pain, the levels have dropped significantly...I can walk without stabbing pain piercing through me. I am sleeping so much better, even waking almost refreshed. My mood is a million times better and I just (again) feel so light and breezy! I wake up singing and smiling...I haven't felt this good in a long time...way before I met Danick (talked about in my memoir "My Cinderella Story A Dark Fairy Tale") so that's been a while.

I am just so happy, and so proud of myself for making this huge leap...what a great idea this was! It totally outweighs any side-effects that may happen. This was why I hadn't wanted to try it sooner. I grew up in the 80's and 90's, and back then HRT was TERRIFYING! So, I was absolutely reluctant to try this, but the more I read and learned, I started to feel more comfortable. Even with my own background with meds, and the shit they had put me through, I still decided this was a good option for me. Man, I am so glad I did this!

Again, you can see the ADHD running rampant in me right now, and I kind of wish it didn't have to 'cool down' but I know it will and I am ok with that. I am excited to see what my new (real) baseline is going to be and even more excited to see where I go from here! I hope things become less Scrambled Eggs!!! Thank you everyone for following me on my journey and I hope that everything is starting to work out for you too! Keep fighting for yourself, you deserve it!!!